Hi, I'm new.

I need help.
Actually I need advise on how to get someone else help.

( alcholism & suicide attempts )

Where do I start? What would you do if you were me?

Thanks.

PS: I would like to go to an AA meeting to listen to & talk to other alcoholics, because I feel like someone who can see things from Mike's point of view might have some insight, but is that welcome at AA meetings? The people who are in those meetings are really trying to make changes and they have my deep respect, so I don't want to more or less use them for my own purposes. If any of you have been to an actual AA meeting, how do you think that kind of thing would come across?

what are some good self help books for panic disorder / agoraphobia
im going to kill this before it kills me

 I would love to hear from anyone who has tried biofeedback or hypnosis for anxiety/panic/agoraphobia.

Thanks

I can't tolerate any other meds than benzos.  This has caused problems for me being that every doctor I go to won't prescribe me any.  I am so upset about all these docs and their benzo biases.  What is a person supposed to do who lives with debilitating anxiety and can't get a second a relief?  Seriously.  I have done therapy, everything, but unless I can get a handle on my physical symptoms, I am not going to make much progress at all.

I currently see a physc. nurse practitioner (can't afford to see a psych.) and she has had me on Klonopin for the past year, prior to that I was Ativan.  Klonopin doesn't help much, yet I believe without it I would be worse off.  My concern is this- raising my dose.  I tend to get tolerant very very quickly.  I don't want to continue raising my dose and then get to a point where she won't raise it anymore- that won't do my any good, yet I am getting no therapeutic relief on my current dose.  Of course she is hesitant to raise it, as am I, but I am in a corner here.  I don't know what else to do. 

I don't want to be on this drug forever, but I don't have any options.  I don't want to keep raising it, but my quality of life is so poor.  I am not sure what to do.  I know if I don't get the symptoms under control I'll just continue on the path I'm on and I've been at this for over 2 years.  This is not good as I know what persistent anxiety does over time.  Does anyone know that given my quick tolerance to benzos that if I do raise it there is a chance I will reach a therapeutic dose and be able to stay on it without having to continue to raise it?

So confused....

ouch. here's a snippet of the reply I received from a mad bridesmaid who wanted me to reimburse her for the dress she bought and I told her fine but it would take me while:

Your the one who has to take 3-4 paychecks to pay anyone back. Like I said I'm not the only one who feels this way. I have a family I care for and don't want to throw away money on someone like you. You gave your fiance 20 days to get sober then called off the wedding. YOUR the one who should feel stupid, and know plenty of people who think you are. I'm sure you'll keep the gifts too because you talked about getting married in a year over ice cream in a court house. Your pathetic!!!

that hurts. she doesnt knwo the story. I did not give him an ultimatum. we made the decision together. some friend.

Title: How to Save a Life
Authors: X_tremeroswellian and Shadow_One
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Rating: R for language and violence.
Author’s Note: This story follows two others, the first titled, “Everything Will Be…” and the second, “Sweet Sacrifice.” If you haven’t read those, you’ll be lost with this one.
Author’s Note 2: The title was obviously inspired by the song “How to Save a Life” by the Fray.
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I am currently feeling tense and anxious about this whole Illinois budget disaster and how it will possibly screw over my agency avoiding thinking about anything that I don't really have control over. I am sensing my Chlark muse stirring to awakening (because I have spent the last three days watching a bunch of Smallville episodes). I don't even know if I could still *write* Chlark. I've been writing Chlean/Chlam so long now.

Anyone want to toss out some little Chlark or Kaloe ficlet ideas to see if my muse will bite? I'd really like to finish Servatis a Maleficum.

Help.

 Thanks to everyone for the support and interest in my experience with abuse.  I never realized how much I needed to talk about it.  I, like all of you, will be "healing" for the remainder of my life, and I am okay with this.  Understanding that my flashbacks and nightmares are only memories of my past, NOT MY PRESENT, has been more empowering than I ever thought possible.  Memories, good and bad, work the same for everyone. . . there will always be triggers.  I am learning to control mine rather than allowing them to control me.  It is overwhelmingly liberating!!

so today i went to the doctor because iv been suffering from constant panic attacks and i was diagnosed with agoraphobia because of my constant panic attacks
i was wondering if any of you all out there knew of anything that i could do or think of doing as of treatment and self therapy i could do at home while im waiting to find a psycotherepist

any advice of what i can do to stop an oncomming panic attack

breathing, safty words, i dunno i feel compleatly helpless.

i mean im really glad that i finally found out what is wrong with me but its also depressing knowing that its forreal and not just in myhead

i have depression, extreem anxxiety, panic disorder, agoraphobia
iv never taken any meds for this i was just wondering what im getting myself into
maybe a rehab for the mentally weak?

anything will help i cant sleep so ill probably be just waiting for advice

thanks
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I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow. I'm scared and freaked. I'm not scared of all doctors (I love my general practitioner to death and couldn't fear her if I tried); I'm just anxious around neurologists. I've had really, really bad experiences with them in the past, including one just abandoning me out of the blue after weaning me off my medication (which I need to do basic things, like walk). I'm working now and trying to help my parents out with things, like grocery shopping and cooking, and can't afford to be unable to write and/or walk right now. I'm scared that she's going to try to take me off my medication. I'm... I'm scared that something bad is going to happen again because of a neurologist.

I know I'm a grown-up and should be able to handle this doctor on my own. I know I've been seeing her for almost 10 years. I know that if I don't like her advice, I don't have to follow it. I know I've been doing good things, for my disability. I've been taking multivitamins, doing daily stretches and thrice weekly yoga, and taking my medication. I've just been having some trouble (big stores like the grocery store or Wal-Mart or the mall are difficult to walk around for the time it takes to do my shopping) and I'm afraid that she won't take me seriously when/if I tell her.

I can't bring myself to go to bed because that means sleep which means tomorrow afternoon and the appointment will be that much closer.

Does anyone who's on a short-acting benzo on an as-needed basis sometimes purposely not take it during the worst times of anxiety? I just did it again earlier today.

Weird, I know. I'll take a Xanax occasionally for moderate anxiety and have prevented lots of trouble just by having it around and knowing it's there. Maybe that's why when it's a full-blown panic attack threatening, for some reason I get scared to pop the pill sometimes.

I guess it feels like a last resort. "What if THAT doesn't stop the panic??" Then I have nothing left to try; I've used up my weapon, so to speak. And that's even scarier. So I keep it "in reserve" sometimes even though deep down, I know it would really help at the moment and that I'm being ridiculous.

That whole cycle of thinking is what takes place in a panicked mind, of course, so all bets for making sense are off. ;) But does anyone else do this?

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You know those people, the ones who never shut up and have to constantly be the centre of attention. There's this one that really irks me, gets drunk and goes on and on about the most irrelevant, stupid shit possible. Unfortunately he is a roommate of a couple of my band members and lives at the house where we practice.

I usually just tell myself, he's an idiot, don't worry about it, but sometimes he says shit that really gets my goat. I'm getting better at just ignoring it, but every now and then he doesn't quite understand which lines to not cross and it's a thing I greatly dislike.

I suppose being the type of anxious/paranoid person I am I naturally don't get along with loud mouth morons, so this is to be expected.

Anyway, how do you deal with "those" people?

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